It has taken me three days to write this post, primarily because I had no idea where to start. God has been speaking to me about many things. Worship, waiting, reckless abandon, seeking approval, weakness, fear etc. I’ll share three main thoughts and hope it makes some sense:
I don’t think any one of us realise the vast greatness of our destiny and the impact our lives will have on others. Sometimes people around us see more, and see more clearly – through visions, dreams or revelations – the plans and purposes of our lives. I was floored by such an encounter last week. Sometimes I’m so overwhelmed by God’s plan for my immediate future and as a result feel inadequate. But I’m constantly reminded by this verse in 2 Corinthians that His strength is made perfect in my weakness:
“But He said to me, My grace (My favor and loving-kindness and mercy) is enough for you [sufficient against any danger and enables you to bear the trouble manfully]; for My strength and power are made perfect (fulfilled and completed) and show themselves most effective in [your] weakness.” – http://bible.us/2Cor12.9.amp
“It is clear to us, friends, that God not only loves you very much but also has put his hand on you for something special.” – http://bible.us/1Thess1.4.msg
In God’s presence we experience something of Heaven. No fear. No worries. Just love, awe, safety, peace, joy, majesty, and beauty. That is something I’m learning from the life of David. No matter his circumstances, there were two things that remained: Worship & Prayer.
At worship cell the other night we had an amazing time in God’s presence. I don’t know what the others experienced, but I had a breath-taking encounter with Jesus. I was just worshiping Him, praying, singing, looking at His glorious face, thinking how beautiful He is, how wonderful His presence is, how I love Him more than life, and just receiving His love for me. In that time of worship He calmed fears that I’ve been having, confirmed my identity and calling, and empowered me to go out and love on people I encounter daily. I experienced God with my mind and heart, His love being poured out and filling me up.
“Forever I am changed by Your love, in the beauty of Your majesty…”
I had a nightmare that night of worship cell, and woke up being really upset, sad and discouraged. So I prayed and played some worship music to find comfort. At a certain point the song “Show Me Your Glory” by Jesus Culture played: “Flashes of light, rolls of thunder, but I’m not afraid. Show me Your glory…” It was raining very hard outside and there was also thunder and lightning.
Suddenly God told me to go stand in the rain as a physical manifestation of His love pouring out. At first I thought He was kidding and that I was making it up in my mind because of the song that just played. It felt silly but it was like I was compelled to do it. It was crazy, I got soaked, and yet it was also powerful and awesome at the same time. I first looked around to see if there was anyone around wondering what the heck I’m doing getting soaked in pouring rain while I could be struck by lightning at any moment. Then I thought: “well, I’m here now so let me drink in the moment.” I closed my eyes and lifted my face and hands to the sky to feel the drops on my face and arms. In that moment God reminded me that He is always with me. Just like I experienced His presence the night before at worship cell, and just like the raindrops I was feeling on my skin, I was experiencing His presence again, in a tangible way. As I opened my eyes, lightning struck a far way off right in front of me. I was not afraid and actually burst out laughing because of the fun I was having with God, and because I knew He loved me perfectly and that nothing can hurt me because He’s got wildly amazing plans for me. He filled me up and once again restored my joy and peace that the nightmare tried to take from me.
I thanked Him for His spectacular display of His glory and His perfect love for me.
“Of course I AM spectacular…” – God
In the words of Heidi Baker ….”I am maturing into childlikeness”. My prayer is that I may continue to grow in sensitivity to the direction of the Holy Spirit and follow Him with reckless abandon.
“I could not limit my values and pursuits to what make others comfortable. I will spend the rest of my life exploring what could happen through the life of one who is willing to cultivate the God-given appetite to see impossibilities bow to the name of Jesus.” – Bill Johnson
“Obviously, I’m not trying to win the approval of people, but of God. If pleasing people were my goal, I would not be Christ’s servant.” – http://bible.us/Gal1.10.nlt
What impossibilities or breakthroughs do you trust God for?